My dear sweet self,
There will always be reminders of your physical and internal wounds. Though internal heals slower than external, eventually the past will hurt you less frequently and less intense. It is a part of who you are and who you will always be.
Be grateful it is no longer your present. Be relieved you have the choice not to revisit your monsters or abusers in the future. Yes, you shared pieces of yourself, but remember you never lost them. You have all the same qualities of the woman that was loved in the past, only now you have gained so much.
You have gained freedom from your abusers. You have gained lessons from your experiments (not mistakes). You have gained strength from what you endured in the climax of your suffering. You have gained deeper trust and commitment with your supporters. You have gained standards suited more adequate for yourself.
You have gained more wholeness than you think for it was what was lost creating voids in you to begin with. You always had the freedom to let go of the things causing those voids. It wasn’t because of weakness that you held on, it wasn’t because you were selfish, it wasn’t because you were afraid of letting go – it was because you are a strong believer that things can and will get better. Remember that is why you have to let go because that is how to make things better.
You need to be a strong believer in yourself now.
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